When The Curtain Closes (chp 24)

I think it's time for me to present my softer side. Everyone thinks I'm such a cold-hearted beast, but that's not so. I do have a heart. Personally, I feel it's one of the largest from what I've seen from these humans! Yes, I have killed and taken the lives of innocent people, but that's all people seem to see. They don't know how much it hurt to feel the life leave slowly be deprived from my victims. There was so pain and sadness flowing through me that it took ALL the strength I possessed to hold back the tears. These people had not done anything to harm me and I did not want to kill them. I was driven by the hatred I had in my heart for my creator. It was the only way I could make him suffer the way I had. The only way to make him feel the agony I felt when he salvaged the one and only chance I had for acceptance! The only to make him live with the anguish I had had to deal with for the entirety of my life! If HE had only accepted me for who I was when he first created me! If HE had only been more compassionate towards after getting over the initial of my appearance! If HE had only kept his promise in making me a companion that I could call my own! It's HIS fault, NOT MINE! And he deserves to pay for the all he has put me through! Don't you agree?

Taking Joy In His Agony (chp 23)

HA HA HA! Tonight I have taken the life of Elizabeth Clerval! My plan is working so well! After killing her I stayed to watch the reaction of my creator and he was devastated! He took all the precautions he THOUGHT would be necessary, but of course he was wrong! I waited until she was left alone while he wondered about the other room searching for any sign of ME! I then sprung on the beast's mate and seized her by the neck! I squeezed and squeezed until I felt all the life leave from her body! My creator heard her screams, but was too late! I sprang the window and awaited to see his reaction! I enjoyed the agony expressed on his face! The face that usually showed fear and anxiety was now filled with melancholy and despair! It purely satisfying! I laughed in his face and his took a shot at me, but missed! His shot awoken the rest of the cottagers, but I was long gone by then!

Promises Aren't Made To Be Broken (chp 21 & 22)

My devious plan has began! I have taken the life of Henry Clerval and the best part is, everyone thinks it was my creator's fault! He's rotting away in prison while I'm free to roam the land in search of my next victim, my creator's beloved Elizabeth. I made a promise to be with him on his wedding night and I am a man of word! I will follow him on his voyage back to Geneva. I will watch him as his greets his family and fake happiness. He thinks he will defeat me and get a step ahead by rushing his wedding, but on the inside he is terrified of the uncertainty of when I shall strike again and does not know who I plan to kill next. I find it very amusing and interesting to watch him squirm under my "torture". I'm not physically doing anything to him, but I am most definitely in control of his emotions and mental state. He is the puppet and I am the puppeteer and will continue to be until he is dead!

Trust? Never! (chp 20 & 21)

I can't believe this! I've been following my creator around for the past couple of months and tonight I walked in on him destroying the companion he promised to make for me! I'm outraged! We made a deal and he just threw it away! Now, I must make him suffer! I must make him pay for the pain and torment he has caused me! But how? What is a way that I can get to him without laying a hand on him? Hmmm ... GOT IT! I will start by taking the life of the one person who means the most to him: his best friend, Henry Clerval! He seems to be the closest person to him right now. The one who seems to be the one who makes him feel better when he takes his spells. Perfect! Without him, how could my creator survive?! This is a genius plan, but it's still missing something! I can't think of it right now, but it'll come to me eventually! Till then, I must find this Clerval and DESTROY HIM!

A Turnaround .. Maybe? (chp 18)

Master's going to make me a mate! Finally, someone I can call my friend! Someone who will be there for me and care for me as I once cared for my protectors! I wonder what she will be like? Will she run in fear of my hideous appearance or run and console me and tell me that everything is not as bad as it seems? Will she be as beautiful as a Magnolia in May or ugly as the ogre who haunts the village children? I am so anxious to meet her, but at the same time my experiences with meeting new people have been so bad that I am afraid of what may happen. Ugh! So much confusion and sadness has enveloped my first year of life. I hope She will be the end of that. Hopefully, we can live happily together and be able to deal with the torments of life as one instead of having to suffer alone.

The Big Step (chp 15)

I've decided to attempt to reveal myself to my protectors. I figure the best and safest way is to confront the old man first. Due to his blindness, he will not be able to look upon my hideousness which seems to be the main cause of my enemies' fear and hatred. I am very frightened to do this and I am not sure of my protectors will act. I mean, they do not seem to be mean or hateful people. I have observed them give to the hungry and provide shelter to the homeless. How then, could they turn me away who only seeks love and compassion? I feel confident, but at the same time I fear my plan will fail and I will yet again be forced to run and hide, alienating myself from the rest of the world. My future is unpredictable and the only way I will be able to find the outcome is by going for it.

"It's A Love Story, Baby Just Say ... Yes !" (chp 14)

My lessons continue to grow more and more interesting each day. Today I learned the history behind Safie and Felix's burning romance and the cause of the De Lacey's misfortune. Turns out, Felix saved Safie's father from being executed by the French government for his obnoxiousness. Safie's father promised her hand in marriage if he were to complete his mission. Unfortunately, Safie's father despised the thought of his daughter marrying a Christian and was only using her to get out of harm's way. Once Felix had gotten them to safety, Safie's father's plans were revealed. Safie was forced to be a boarder at a convent at Leghorn. Felix did not have any time to argue about safety because his father and sister had been captured and imprisoned because of Felix's actions. He hurried back, hoping that by turning himself in he would spare the lives of his family, but he was wrong. He was also placed in jail and the De Lacey's were drained of their fortune and forced into exile. After being set free, Felix was still unhappy because he had lost the love of his life. His sadness was cured with the return of his "sweet Arabian" who came as soon as she got away from her father. Even though their past was filled with sadness and despair, Safie and Felix now have the chance to rekindle the flame they began long ago.

Better Off Not Knowing :( [chp 13]

The mood of my protectors' cottage has changed. Everyone seems to be in a good mood all because of this visitor who Felix calls his "Sweet Arabian". As I observed from my hovel, I learned that this stranger's name was Safie and she had come to learn the customs and language of The De Lacey's. I found this to be the perfect opportunity for me to learn a bit as well. Over time, I continued to pay close to what my protectors were teaching her and ended up learning faster than Safie, for whom the lessons were intended. While listening to Felix read Volney's Ruins of Empires, a new question sparked inside of me:  How could man be so powerful, yet so vicious? If man can't accept those like him, how should I expect them to treat me with any respect? What reason do I have to feel that I deserve respect from them? All these questions ran through my mind and sent me back to square one. I wish I had just been able to live not knowing. I would have been better off not having to deal with all this stress and confusion. What makes it worse is that there is no one for me to talk to. No one for me to confide in or ask all these questions. I again realized I was .... Alone.

The Real World (chp 11)

When I awoke I was cold and confused. Everything around me was a huge blur. My senses seemed to blend together and I could not distinguish any smell, color, or sound. As I ventured among the trees through the harsh winter winds, I struggled to keep warm. That is, until I came upon this light, not like the one that illuminated the overhead sky, but one on the ground. It seemed to be ignited by wood, so I experimented. I used branches to kindle what I learned to be as fire. After toying with the fire for a while, I finally drifted off to sleep. Morning came and I began my search for shelter. I discovered a small cottage that was inhabited by humans. As I approached the people inside began to go crazy and started attacking me with any weapon they could find. After taking the beating for a while, I finally managed to garner the strength and courage to run away. My feelings were terribly scorned. What had I done wrong? Had I offended them in some way? I was lost and extremely discombobulated. So many questions ran through my mind .. What was I to do now? Where was I to go? I had no where to go and had no idea what was in store for me. Finally, after running and contemplating for I don't know how long, I found a small shelter mad of wood. I squeezed my enormous body underneath it and hid from the outside world, afraid of what happen if I were to encounter my new found enemy again.

You Created Me, Now You're Abandoning Me ... Really? (chp 10)

I met up with my creator, Victor Frankenstein, today. I was excited to see him because I would finally get the chance to express my true and bottled up feelings to him. I find it very unusual that the person that created me and brought me to life is now treating me no better than the dirt underneath his feet! It really hurts my feelings and I think he fails to realize that. I gave him an ultimatum: if he agrees to treat me with some kind of courtesy then I will leave his kind alone and never harm another human being again. On the other hand if he continues to treat me as if I am some kind of monster who was not born of his own hands, then I will carry on my harmful acts towards him and his race. How does he expect others to accept me as I am when he, my reason for being alive in the first place, does not himself? If people see the way he alienates me they will follow his example and be hostile creatures towards me. But if he shows some type of tolerance maybe his people will open their eyes and feel some kind of compassion for me. All I want is to be treated like everyone else. I realize I am different, but pushing me away won't help my situation at all. It will only make things worse. The best thing for me right now is to have someone to have my back. In this cold, cruel world it really sucks to not have anyone there for you and to have everyone hate you just because you're different. I mean, it wasn't my fault, I had no control over how I was made. Why should I pay the price for something I can't change and have no say-so over?