Better Off Not Knowing :( [chp 13]

The mood of my protectors' cottage has changed. Everyone seems to be in a good mood all because of this visitor who Felix calls his "Sweet Arabian". As I observed from my hovel, I learned that this stranger's name was Safie and she had come to learn the customs and language of The De Lacey's. I found this to be the perfect opportunity for me to learn a bit as well. Over time, I continued to pay close to what my protectors were teaching her and ended up learning faster than Safie, for whom the lessons were intended. While listening to Felix read Volney's Ruins of Empires, a new question sparked inside of me:  How could man be so powerful, yet so vicious? If man can't accept those like him, how should I expect them to treat me with any respect? What reason do I have to feel that I deserve respect from them? All these questions ran through my mind and sent me back to square one. I wish I had just been able to live not knowing. I would have been better off not having to deal with all this stress and confusion. What makes it worse is that there is no one for me to talk to. No one for me to confide in or ask all these questions. I again realized I was .... Alone.